Dawn of a new Day

well the day is winding down, who knows what tomorrow will bring. I pray to my higher power to let a new day be better then the present. i know the things that i need to do, but i need help with them. my pain runs deep and it is not the forsaken pain of love, it is a pain of survival. i am finding it very hard to keep my mind into just today. i am powerless over what may be in my future and that scares the hell out of me. at the moment i cannot even focus on having someone in my life as a partner. i would be bringing them into a living hell and that would not be fair to them, there is alot of work to be done here and i am questioning whether or not i can do it. I pray to god that he walks along side me in this journey. I guess it is true, what don't kill us will make us stronger.