Something to Ponder

I talked to my sponsor today and told him i will be moving to California, he asked me have i thought this through. my answer was yes i did, but as you can tell from my prior blogs the feeling that i have for my future house mate. She asked me today would i be able to handle it if she became involved with someone.

I honestly have no idea how i would feel, wait yes i do. i would feel rejected, not that i am going there with expectations. but it would seem like she is willing to give everyone a chance except me.
Because there would be no more you are 3000 miles away stuff, but i would sorta understand because in my current situation i have nothing to offer her except true love. but i am trying to keep it into today and not project. who knows my HP might decide its time for me to be a rich man, ya neva know. and i will depend on him to help me get through any situation tha could not be healthy for me.

I went to a meeting tonight and it was a birthday meeting, i heard some really good ESH there i have been isolating the last couple of days. not really doing anything but staying in my head. so it was good to get back to the fellowship, it made me feel good when one of the coffee guys handed me a cup of hot water for my tea without me asking. I was hoping to hear from my friend tonight but i doubt if i hear from her. I really need to take alook at why i want to talk to her every single day this cannot be healthy. GOD grant me the serenity to except the things i cannot, the Courage to change the things that i can and the Wisdom to know the difference.