Well today i started my online job search in beautiful California, oh my God. I did not see any jobs in my field and so far the ones that i did see are paying like 8:00 dollars and hour. I am trying to stay positive and continue to leave it in the hands of God.
I am really excited about moving to California to Live, it is unfortunate that i am moving there under these circumstances. i wish i could have been going under previous circumstances, but i guess God has me going there under current circumstances for a reason. Now there is a very important piece that i want to mention, last month i told my best friend that i had fallen in love with her. oh my god i did alot of crying, what i need to ask myself is this can i handle living with her knowing how i feel about her?
Well i know i need to stay focused on finding employment and going to school, the rest will take care of itself. It is probably going to get worse before it gets better, but i dont want to be a burden on Susan i just feel so fucking helpless. I am wondering if i can get some type of medical assistance in California because i am going to need some.
I have many fears but i am hoping to overcome them, my biggest fear is failing. I do not want to fail, i have to give it 110% at all times. I am going to go back on craigslist and monster.com to continue to look for employment. They say when one door closes another one opens, lets hope this is true.
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