Friendship

Friendship is a very important thing too have in your life. i have very few friends. The problem i am having now and i am really working on it is separating friendship and Love. I have loved my friend Susan for quiet a while. Now you have to understand, i did not just wake up and discover i loved her. This all happened over time, we have spent countless hours on the phone talking. We have shared many things together, she knows more about me then most.

She understands me and i guess thats where my love for her began. But the distance between us makes it difficult for us to have a relationship other then friendship. Now she is going through some things in her relationship. i am trying to help her with but sometimes its hard or me to be objective because of my love for her. but i am working on this because her happiness is what matters here and not what i feel.

If i try and impose my will on her i will lose her friendship, then i will die. i am trying to give her good honest advice. last night we talked and i kept up front that i cant impose my will or tell her what to think or do and you know what after our talk i felt like i finally did something right.

I just want whats right for her and what she deserves, because she deserves better then what she is getting and i just don't want her to settle. I will continue to try and be the best friend i can to her, because no one knows what the future holds.