Saturday, January 31, 2009

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I am very close to nine months of being sober as i write this here.
I have many struggles and i am filled with fear. I am terrified of dying alone just want someone that makes be glad to be home.
But right now i have lots of work to do on me, maintaining my sobriety in my Recovery.

I have been told everything Cell go make friends, but at the end of the day i am alone again.
I want someone that's going to be true to me, and we can share our lives to the highest degree.
Someone that want what i want, sharing life together laughing and crying no matter what the weather. a partner, a soul mate you get the idea someone that i can always hold near. it is wonderful too love and be loved back, when i find it i want it to be right and exact.
right now i don't even think i know what love is, i do know it comes with many fears.

My Heart has been broken a couple of times if that was against the law i guess it would have been a couple of crimes. i guess somewhere in all of this there is a lesson to learn, and if i dont take heed to i will continue to get burned. i don't know i am still very sore, but the insanity of it all is i come back for more. Life and Love is so very deep. good night all i am about to cry myself to sleep.

1 comment:

  1. It is better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all. Those words do ring so true. When the time is right you God will find you a person to come home to and share your life with. We all have to be patient and put it in our HP's hands. Hugs...

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